Learning to Trust

The universe and God are very powerful and both work in mysterious ways. I am amazed and grateful for all of the people that have recently come into my life that are leading me closer to the job that I am looking for. Things are coming together and with less effort than I had anticipated based on all the dismal news in the press today about the job market.

I set out on this journey to follow my heart and find my passions. I did many informational interviews and learned that most people who found a career that they love seemed to fall into it. After all of my introspection and analysis, I still can not fit myself neatly into a function, like marketing, finance, or accounting. In this black and white world, all I know for sure is that I am a shade of gray, blue, yellow, green, or pink, depending on my mood for the day.

Here is what I know about myself so far:

1. I have a passion for health and fitness. I must exercise each day because it makes me feel confident, energized, and strong.
2. I love to learn new things and have a variety of interests. I lose myself while reading good books, browsing through magazines, and mindlessly doing crossword puzzles.
3. I feel energized by connecting with other people and helping them solve problems; I want to make a difference in another person's life.
4. I need to work with smart people who are passionate about what they do in order to learn and grow.
5. Routines bring me comfort and help me feel in control in the chaos within the world today. I naturally put process in place when faced with ambiguity and chaos.
6. Balance is important to me. I work hard, but I also need time to myself to re-energize, reflect, and have fun.

Now I can apply these things in many ways. But maybe, my journey right now is not to find the "perfect" job for me, rather, to learn to trust myself. My journey is to rediscover my confidence and what I really want to do, then trust myself that I will make it happen.

For the first time in my life, people see all of my potential and actually want me to work for them. Today I feel like Sally Field when she won her first award, "You like me, you really like me!" Thank you God for all that you have given me. It brings tears to my eyes when I think of all the wonderful people that are showing me my gifts and helping me find my confidence again.

Now I am faced with some wonderful opportunities that will lead in different directions. Both of them seem scary to me and I question my abilities. Now I need to learn how to look into my heart and see the one that feels like the right fit. Now is the time to learn to trust the process and continue to believe that God and the universe will bring everything together when the time is right. So now, I am learning to "go with the flow" and to enjoy the ride.