Today I took a big risk and said "no" to a job opportunity that did not feel like a good fit for me at this time. It was the hardest decision that I have had to make because I am left facing one of my biggest fears - not having a job. However, I set out on this journey to follow my heart. My heart sent me clear signals that I could not ignore telling me the job was not what I wanted.
In the past, I would have ignored what my heart was telling me and tried to make the best of the job. Yes, I know that I could have been pleasantly surprised and the job could have turned out to be just what I needed. However, I had too many red flags during the interview process that made me come to the decision to not take the job.
I still do not have a clear picture of what my ideal job would look like. I believe it will be something that I cannot imagine right now. I will walk into an environment and meet with people who are smart and share my values. It will be a comforting place where I will be able to learn and help others solve problems. I will be respected and appreciated for what I can do, rather than criticized for my weaknesses. I will be able to have balance in my life. The job will fall into place easily and I will be excited and energized by the opportunity.
I made my decision and I will not second guess. I will continue to focus on what I am looking for in a company and a job and trust that the right opportunity will be there when I am ready. Maybe this job opportunity was a test to see if I am committed to following my heart, rather than surrendering to my fears. Maybe right now, I need a little more time to heal.
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